“Try to visualize the love in your heart as a flame. It doesn’t need to be a big flame. Concentrate on your heart and see the flame that is present there and can appear. I will stand by you.
Now, after this short meditation, I would like to say that you can do things in yourself, namely, that you can come up for yourself and learn to come up for yourself; but do take account of the fruits of your meditations. Try to retain something from each meditation, at the end summarizing and deciding, “What did I experience in my meditation?”
Don’t only meditate but also recall your meditation to see how it went, because you can learn much by doing this. Jot down some remarks in a notebook, “I experienced this and that in my meditation,” and then you will be able to follow your progress in the discovery of what happens within you when you meditate.
Recall your meditation to see how it went; jot down some short remarks in a notebook.
Just a short note is enough, so as not to waste time. Life is exciting and is a unity. By writing down what you experience in meditation you will be able to deal more consciously with it all.
In time you will have accumulated a great amount of experience; it’s a spiritual search, a spiritual awakening, a spiritual development. It may be that after some weeks, months, years, you will realize you have had many wonderful inner experiences that have brought you much further than you could ever have imagined. (...)
So it is that you can have an inner experience which has a certain importance. But don’t think you will immediately be able to understand its meaning. Your reasoning mind will always lag behind. It is only when the mind has gradually learned to express itself, and has found the words to do so, that it will be able to keep up.
The experience is always ahead of the reasoning mind, the mind is forced to think in order to try to set everything straight for itself, to try to formulate and understand it, and it is just through the experience that the mind will become enlightened.
Don’t think you must take your mind along with you in these experiences. No, just witness the experience and write down only a very brief report of what you’ve experienced. Later you will be able to understand it; so don’t try to do so immediately.
Your reasoning mind will always lag behind; the experience is always ahead.
Likewise, don’t try to understand what you see and experience in your meditations; this would be a mistake because then you are interfering with the experience. Just be observant, in a relaxed, peaceful manner and don’t start thinking while you are in meditation, because that would be wrong.
Don’t start thinking while you are in meditation. Just be observant, in a relaxed, peaceful manner.
If you start thinking during your meditation then you must be aware, “I am now busy with my thoughts.” This is something you may do, but it is still always a preparatory step to meditation, it is not yet meditation. It’s a kind of a mental battle taking place in the world of your thoughts, a battle to attain inner stillness, just like you can also engage in a battle to attain inner stillness in your emotional world.
Because when you are meditating a feeling of unhappiness may come over you or a hidden feeling of depression may arise in you, or a feeling of fear or some other feeling.
Be aware that you can simply observe these feelings arising in you and let them flow away, without worrying about them, because you can also lay your feelings to rest and come to a state of silence herein too.
A preparatory step to meditation is the battle to attain inner stillness in the world of your thoughts and in your emotional world.
Meditation is a work for which you don’t directly need to use your mind but for which you can pay attention to the experiences you have. Only later will you be able to express them with your reasoning mind and be able to refer to them saying, “Look here, so many months ago I experienced such and such in my meditation and now I realize what it means.”
This is because it can sometimes be months or even years before you are able to interpret or understand the meaning of certain particulars of what you experienced in your meditations.
It’s an important work, a process of development, of growth, and it is something that will slowly clarify itself with time. It isn’t necessary that you take in and understand everything immediately. No, allow your mind to follow behind. A thought can also be an afterthought, so you know, “I’ve lived, I’ve experienced and later on I’ll be able to describe it for myself and relate it to others.” In this way your mind will develop. (...)
It isn’t necessary that you take in and understand everything immediately. It will slowly clarify itself with time.
Stay calm, also within yourself, and learn not to will things of yourself, not even things you might absolutely want to achieve.
You could, for instance, get all worked up and say to yourself, “I simply must see that flame in my heart, and I can’t.” Be patient with yourself by not really willing it. Just keep hoping that it will once happen, that once you will see that flame and feel the warmth of your heart, even though you can’t see it with your eyes but, for instance, with your inner eye – this means you can feel the flame and are able to be aware of its existence.
This calls for patience; it’s not something that happens just like that. You should learn to stay calm, not to give up and to try it again and again and again, without hurrying.”
Learn to stay calm, not to give up and to try it again and again and again, without hurrying.
Master Morya
Geert Crevits © Mayil.com
Excerpts from:
“Morya Wisdom 4: Trust in yourself”
from chapter 9: ‘You can realize yourself’
