“I have already spoken about meditation, that you should be able to meditate, but that you should see it as a simple way, the simplest that exists, namely, going within yourself and trying to put the world into perspective, so that you say to yourself: "The world, all good and well, but now I detach myself from worldly worries, I leave the world to its own worries and I'm going to sit on my own island and look at myself and at the things coming from my own inner being." Then just let the world go, settle within yourself and look at what is happening in your inner world.
Don't fall asleep, but pay attention to everything within your innermost Self. You needn't do anything, just try to find the silence within yourself, and this is, at the same time, both easy and difficult. There are always the opposites.
When you do this you will continually be receiving more strength because once you enter into the silence, you will be recharged. There is a kind of dynamo that switches on and you will find yourself becoming filled with happiness. If you can find the silence within yourself, you will find it enjoyable and gratifying, and easy as well.
Then you might think you should be doing this more and more, but, no, you shouldn't. You should do it for just a little while, for you have tasks to do here on earth and you should not confuse the two.
Once you enter into the silence, you will be recharged. There is a kind of dynamo that switches on.
You shouldn't go so totally into the silence that you abandon your tasks. No, you should see your tasks through to a satisfactory end and, at the same time, seek the silence in yourself. These two things should go together.
Life brings variations, such as working and resting, sleeping and waking. These contrasts of day and night will always exist. You should also be able to realize the contrast in yourself, by seeking the silence of your inner being and knowing that this is a lever for your own existence. Like this you can uplift your life. But be well aware that only if you can bring up the courage to approach the depth of your own life, will it become deeper and different.
Don't get into a panic because I say you should meditate. No, you just have to give it a try. Don't start to tell yourself: "It's difficult, it's even a bit frightening, and it actually makes me kind of unwell." For sometimes this can be said in such a way that instead of reaching the silence, people run away from themselves.
When they find they can't do it, then they shouldn't do it. Then they should just try to do it a little at a time, and maybe a year or two later try it once again, that's all.
Don't force yourself in this or in whatever else you do on this earth. Whatever you do, try to enjoy it and try to discover yourself in it: what do you want from this existence?
Sometimes instead of reaching the silence, people run away from themselves. Don't force yourself in this. Just try it a little, and later try it again.
When you go about it in this way, you will find yourself steadily becoming kinder in relation to yourself, and you will look at yourself and others with ever more patience. For everything is undergoing change, also you are changing and what you're not yet able to do now, you will be able to do tomorrow, or perhaps the day after or within a year or a couple of years.
Try to be patient and realize that you can also forge a path in this way. But you don't have to. Don't think that you are oblidged to meditate, just like you don't have to be that obedient girl or boy that must always do her or his very best. No, go ahead and be a bit of a bore or a slob if you wish, for you can learn from that just as well. Pound your fist on the table if you like and perhaps express yourself in a new way which you may never have done before. Others may then be surprised and wonder: what has happened to him or her? This might even be amusing, and you can learn from that too.
You are capable of doing things you've never done before and it can well be amusing to do so.
Don't be afraid of doing things you've never done before, because in doing so you extend your limits and discover who you really are. I wouldn't like for you to say about yourself: "I can't do this", for then I'm sure you don't mean it. You are capable of doing things you've never done before and it can well be amusing to do so.
The thought that comes from within yourself might seem very simple, but if you look at the reality of your life you suddenly encounter a complexity of information. It may be that you think: 'I have to be like this or like that', and you impose rules upon yourself.
What you actually should be able to do is to come to a peace, to attain an inner tranquility in order to work out and determine your life from there. This is then much better, you step into a direct relation with your inner Self and that is a great thing.
It may be that you think: 'I have to be like this or like that', and you impose rules upon yourself.
If you are attentive to yourself, to the truth of yourself, and express it, it is as if you were gazing into a pond, where you learn to concentrate your thoughts on yourself and you know: if I delve to the depth of my being, I will be able to sense the things that rise to the surface correctly.
If you do this, at first there will be many things that arise and this will be a moment of change in your life. You must try to comprehend what you see and experience in yourself. If you experience yourself entering certain streams of emotions or certain trains of thoughts that are not yours - for this is possible - you should try to understand this.
If you are attentive to yourself, to the truth of yourself, and express it, it is as if you were gazing into a pond.
Try to look at what is inside yourself and don't assume that everything within you is yours. This is the first important point you must try to comprehend with your conscious mind.
Not all the joy you experience is yours, not all the pain within you is yours, not all the fear within you is yours. You have to look at these things and try to become aware of what it means to have fear, to be in pain, to be joyful or to be caught up in a stream of thought.
Don't assume that everything within you is yours.
Try to express this for yourself and then it may be that you say things and speak words which initially you don't fully understand. This is just like an artist who paints a few brushstrokes on a canvas and only afterwards sees what she is creating, for as she begins to paint, a play of lights and colours and shadows begins to unfold, and little by little she learns to see it and discovers how to express it so that it can be good and beautiful.
Realize that within you is something like a living totality, with certain structures that you should be able to approach and express. You may be more or less successful in doing this, but it could be that you will not be happy with what you say or write or bring out. In that case don't be discouraged, but do persist. Just like a fisherman trying to catch a fish, who has to sit and wait for awhile, wondering: "Am I going about it the right way? Is my bait good, is the hook okay, is the hook at the right depth?"
Be careful and look to see what it is you try to draw out from within yourself. Look at what is inside, within yourself and what you are trying to find there. Then you'll be able to express what it is you are looking for within yourself.
Delve deep within yourself and you will be able to distinguish between the thoughts you find there, the structures of thoughts or feelings, or the silence you find, or the quality of the silence you enter into, or between all the different remarkable things there within you. You may experience visions or energies, or fragments of energies or whatever else may be within you: texts, spoken words, dialogues or whatever - many, many things for you to gradually uncover.
Delve deep within yourself and you will be able to distinguish between the thoughts you find there, the structures of thoughts or feelings, or the silence you find...
It's important you find the courage to do this, to try and explore your inner world by entering into the tranquility and silence, and then allowing whatever arises to come to you.
At first, when you delve within the depths of yourself, you may not know what to do there. Just staying in the silence you may feel as if you're wasting time. However, at that point don't run away from yourself but keep trying to stay there, within yourself. It's important that you keep trying. Not for long, but definitely for short periods of time, so that you can have the feeling: 'I'm not lost when I delve within myself'. You must try this.
Keep trying to stay within yourself. Not for long, but definitely for short periods of time, so that you can have the feeling: 'I'm not lost when I delve within myself'.
What does it mean to enter within yourself? It means becoming conscious of yourself, your innermost Self, and being able to experience and perceive the streams that flow within you, and also being able to understand their meaning.
It is an increase in consciousness to be aware of what can be found within yourself, that you have an understanding, somewhat like: 'I'm sitting here on a chair, leaving the world to itself, looking to see what energies are within my inner Self and where they go'. Then you'll be able to see that your thoughts can influence these energies and that your feelings have a certain way of coming and going.
You must try to stay very alert to what happens within your inner Self, then you won't be bored for you'll have plenty of work to do there. This means that when you delve deep within yourself your consciousness must be very sharp.
In the beginning this is difficult because most people tend to fall asleep when sitting silently with their eyes closed. If this happens then you should pull yourself together, for it wouldn't make sense to sleep - you might just as well go to bed.
When you sit in the silence of your own Self, you must look attentively at the things that surface, try to grasp them and see what they mean. Not that you have to analyse everything, simply observe: 'Hey, this is a thought, here's another thought and yet another, this is now a feeling' - just so that you simply try to register what is within you.
Look attentively at the things that surface, try to grasp them and register what is within you; observe: 'Hey, this is a thought, here's another thought and yet another, this is now a feeling'
I would now like you to meditate for five minutes, no longer, and observe whether you are in thought or in feelings, or in the silence, or in bodily discomfort, or whatever else. Pay attention to your breathing for a while, what happens to it, but you don't have to breathe in any special way. Just observe it and see what happens. Do this now, for five minutes.”
Master Morya
Geert Crevits © Mayil.com
This text comes from the book:
“Morya Wijsheid 5: Het woord in de stilte” (Words in the silence)
from chapter 9: ‘The silence’
